Comfortably Busy

Life's really gotten too hectic with placement prep, cases, revisions and the dirty pink paper... So here we are... 350 people... on a random walk through jobmathics... But, I'm coping far better than I thought I would... I'm actually sneaking in fun... The pace actually makes me forget the facts of the case... comfortably numb to all that should really matter... There's really two eventualities, one that I will be so far away that the facts will blur and fall into the redundant and immaterial... the other that I will feel so far away and not me but the facts will stare back... but for now... it's all good... I'm busy... I'm happy... and even a bit excited...

Biggest Gift

Life in the past three days has been so hectic, so tiring, so much fun, at times exhilirating... at times sad... but above all real... Said two goodbyes with a very heavy heart... got some good news... got a reality check... got some perspective...

As I said good bye today, I realised, I will always suck at them... life will always teach you things but there are somethings you just don't get better at... Tonight feels weird... just like last night... but, it will get better... and one day you wake up again 'alive' and that's when you do justice to your biggest gift.

Of the Cinderella Hour

One day... 10:00 am - Pricing Exam, 3:00 pm - Lunch and obedience, 6:00 pm - Did it actually happen... Accept it for its 'glam' appeal, 8:00 pm - Amazement does not cease... neither does the homesickness, 10:00 pm - Safety Inventory, Cycle Inventory, Set Up time... give it to me as long as its not graded, 12:00 am - Cinderella hour, Cinderella indulges in CSR with a mission... Mission Impossible... nah... 1:00 am - Fervent chatting with quadmates with coke and full-house, 2:13 am - pleasant interruption... Amazement does not cease... Just of a different kind...

New Years! 

Wisdom enough to manage thy neighbors affairs...

Last night was a repetition of three weeks ago... I cussed, I screamed and behaved like a total brat... But, none of that bothers me... What does... Is the fact that I let insignificant people get to me... Everything people weigh me in normative scales and issue judgments I get so bothered... As the mercury rises, I know it's not worth it... But I still do the damage... In many ways the year here has been a great experience... And I guess this is a part of it... But I can't help missing my old friends... As N would have put it... It's jealousy with a halo... Be with you soon... Maybe even Feb...

girls slumber party 

break from elp... 

Vasant Valley 

Blue Eye Make Up! We have our days... 

Forbidden

There is a charm about the forbidden that makes it unspeakably desirable - Mark Twain

You know it's not for real... you know it shouldn't be... you do whats the easiest to do... live in the gray areas... rationalize and justify... but savour the moment... each and everyone. They all make up the landscape that is you...

Inflexion

Life really comes a full circle... You get to a point when you decide to move on... and just at that inflexion point.. you need to make a choice... and it all comes back... just like a full circle...

It's time like these when you really find out what your'e made of... what is the one thing that you can't do without...

For me it's self-respect... there is a subtle line between being flexible and losing your self-esteem... I've made my choice...

Route No. 3 comes full circle

Have been in touch with AD over the past few weeks... he's contemplating chucking up the Wall Street dollar salary and manhattan life to come to Gachibowli... guess that explains why he needs to talk to someone... just when I think I live most of MY life between a rock and a hard place... I do know where he's coming from...

Having said that... Bus No. 3... Me, him and Nattu-Pattu shared many a joke and loads of fights... it's wild how relationships change over time... I hope he makes up his mind and decides on G-Bowli and dude... I'll take your real-estate advice with a bit of capital raising, have been contemplating stuff on similar lines...

Heard a piece of advice from someone... I'm going to work on it for a while... and if I get 5 CDMA sigma significance (apologies PVR and ganesh)... I'll keep up the efforts... Thanks... and that's as genuine as it gets...

Something to Smile About

It's been ages since I last posted... and it would be very far from the truth if I said I didn't have much to write about... but what I am happiest about is that I was able to spend some quality time with my grandparents...

Last week I thought everything in this world was transpiring to keep me away from what I should not have... day before I thought maybe there's a sign that I don't pick up... today I know that even if it's worth trying for... it's certainly not worth worrying about... and there's comfort in today...

Life continues... I make mistakes... people exercise their birth rights of judgement... I forgive... and finally the focus blurs... you look at the bigger picture and can't help but smile...

B-School

Been a long time... it's been a hectic week 1... no end-term is suddenly a scary concept with the load of assignments and take homes... mind is just aimlessly wandering... just can't concentrate on anything today...

The week that was... 7 courses sampled... financial engineering braved without pre-req...5 course idea toyed with... sanity restored/prevailed... ELP client presentation delivered... earl grey finally found and amply stocked... cleaned my cupboard... put away last term's stuff... collected dry-cleaning from last month...

Life is going to get a whole lot complicated now... but I think it's about time I prioritized... made the first step in that direction today... didn't even see DH... too spaced out to write anymore...

Its Over

Its over... n so soon... really wish I had a couple of days more to go before term starts...

Have been working on the ELP everyday and it seems like there is a lot of work still pending... off-site work just doesn't happen...

Today's dinner was a welcome break... and the pear strudel was to die for... I need this break... that wake up call into city life every now and then... Come to think of it... I've never lived on a campus in both my degrees... now look at me in the oxbridge life of 20kph speed limits, quiet lakes, quaint walkways and signs that read, "Drive Carefuly, Peacocks Crossing"...

Guess it'll be over soon... and I'll be kind of glad and kind of sad... Ciao...

Intolerable Cruelty

"Accidental rudeness occurs alarmingly often" - A. Dumbledore
Ever so often you spend a lot of time wondering why someone was abruptly rude to you... I've figured that more than half the time they didn't mean to... And life is best lived not analyzing the why's but learning the how's...

Exams over... Judgment Day (if they insist) on Sunday... no tickets to Harry Potter's show for the full weekend... how cruel does it get...

PS: As next Thursday draws closer, I can't help but look back in amazement... It's been a ride... and not always a smooth one, but given my muggle-ness I could have never thought I'd come out the way I did, but I have Sirius watching over...

The best way out is always through - R. Frost

Every once in a while you realize that there’s somebody whom you cannot get through the day without, somebody who needs to know every mundane detail of your day… somebody who is in your thoughts when shit hits the fan… somebody who stands by you and thinks you are worth it even when you question your greater purpose… someone who respects you as he knows you are making mistakes because he would rather you learn… someone who doesn’t have to tell you something’s amiss… you just know… Wish I could just collect all these people and put them in a bubble and just live there…
Sometimes just writing about a few things and people helps you put things in perspective… two weeks ago I found out that its never too early… and that it happens… and that it could happen to someone whom you can not imagine life without… but life always goes on… some of the most important things in life do not include a job, a car, a house, a sex life… think about it… what are your greatest fears… its abstruse to a 23 year old, to be MBA to think through some of those things… but when you think harder… the clarity is ironical… so is life

Bonbini Aruba 

Good Old Times 

60-60-30... girls rule

That was a great game... SK & SK were tied... and JM was a sorry(sulking) third... This Terms almost over and its probably been the fastest so far... I haven't even had the time to unpack... The emerald's working... The clock's ticking... The Hyderabad winter's coming... S is apartment searching... Life is moving... 24 is nearing...

Meanwhile JM's guesses continue to disturb SK & SK... "Say you Say me"??!! Something's up...